Sunday, May 31, 2009

can you believe it, i've never had any professional dance training! thats MINE!!

shimmery tank, Marciano. skirt, Guess. blazer, Bershka. shoes, Aldo. bag, Christiana.

pad thai above and calamari below

Ps. Pictures are from Friday. I have outfit pictures from Saturday when I toured my university so I will post those tomorrow. :)

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

meet Lola.

pants, Forever 21. shoes, Guess. tee, unknown. shirt & belt, vintage.
Lola is a 17 year old girl currently residing in Paris, France for an exchange program hosted by her highly elite boarding school situated in the heart of London. Growing up in an elite family, Lola was expected to become a lady of the house, to engage in tea parties, balls and various highly selective gatherings. Unfortunately for her parents, Lola realised that this life wasn't for her, and attempted to stray away from the constraints of her family. Sadly, being a young 16 year old at the time, Lola had very little say in her life, and to punish her for her rebellion, her parents sent her to a French boarding school in Paris to educate her in all the glory of being a lady. Lola spent her first couple of months in despair as she was stuffed in ruffled gowns, hats larger than her head, and led to events ranging from tea parties at the Ritz, to balls in houses one only reads about in fairytales. Fortunately, luck was on Lola's side, for one day while perusing the busy streets of Paris, she met a young man by the name of Logan. (Logan is an 19 year old penniless artist who does odd jobs to pay for a one room flat). Lola and Logan instantly fell in love, and from then on, Lola's time at her horrid school seemed bearable. They would wander the streets of Paris; they would sit in little coffee shops talking hour upon hour, visit poetry readings, small concerts, and sometimes they'd go dancing to clubs nestled into the cobblestone streets of Paris. Logan was the best thing that happened to Lola, he was the one person who was able to show her that she was perfect the way she was. He was the only person who believed in Lola when the rest of the world walked out on her and left her to strive on all alone.
In four weeks Lola will graduate her elite French boarding school and her parents will welcome her back to live with them on their large estate on the outskirts of London. Lola has been getting desperate, thinking of ways to escape her parents clutches and be with her one love, Logan.
Unfortunately, Lola does not know what to do, and because of this, she is currently residing under a blanket of sadness.
Note. My alter ego.

Friday, May 22, 2009

it makes you feel happy like an old time movie

dress, vintage. shoes, Guess. hat, vintage. belt, vintage.

I've had a couple of really good days lately, but I won't tell you why. It's a secret. Shhh.
Actually, it was one really good day that just made every other day better. I cannot even explain why it was good. Sometimes there are just those days where everything seems to go your way and even the smallest thing can be seen as a magical.
The more the weather warms up, the more I'm starting to feel anxious about summer approaching. I still have no job, which means no money for university or anything really for that matter. So I must find myself a job. Yet, my good day this week has even made me feel better about by joblessness.

I've noticed that some bloggers have started creating alter ego's and I've always had my own little alter ego, but I've never really went into depth about her, so I'm contemplating if I should develop her and introduce her to you all. Well, that's something you'll all have to keep reading my blog for. :)

Ps. Hope you're all enjoying the bigger pictures. I finally realised that bigger pictures are better, and I've started using my photobucket account.

Do you believe in magic?

Monday, May 18, 2009

why is the queen standing without a king?

jacket, vintage. shorts, Bebe. shirt, unknown. shoes, Aldo. tights, unknown. 

That jacket is honestly the most amazing thing I have ever had in my possession. Not only does it have the most perfect shape, it has these amazing gold buttons, and it's made out of linen, so it can be worn all year round; during winter, under a coat. I am honestly in love. There aren't words to describe just how amazing it is.

I know people talk about how if you wait and keep believing for something that you really want to happen, it'll eventually happen or all that notion about what's meant to be, will be. All I have to say is, that I really doubt that. Sometimes it feels like I spend my life wishing for that perfect something to happen and it never does. So now I have exactly 3 weeks to make "meant to be" happen, and waiting around is not exactly an option. Oh why can't my life just be like an episode of Gossip Girl, at least then I could be miserable but with expensive clothes.

Friday, May 15, 2009

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town

tee, Forever 21. shorts, dad's old shorts. shoes, vintage Keds. jewelry, assorted.

These were taken yesterday, but I didn't have time to post them. :(

Anyways, what a hectic school week, although it has ended on a relatively good note, hence, I am actually pretty happy. Only a month of highschool left, and although it is nearing an end, it feels like new doors are opening. I have decided to go into law instead of fashion. Although I of course love fashion and always will, I figured that my future rested in a different direction. Fashion is going to be my hobby.

Furthermore, high school ending is making me realise that now is the time to take chances, make mistakes and lose all fears. 

"Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game."
-A Cinderella Story

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

i had the best days with you

Delayed mother's day post...sorry everybody.

I love my mom, she's an amazing woman, certainly someone whom I look up to everyday. She's has done a great job of bringing me up and I can only hope that one day I will be as good of a mother as she is.  

Sometimes looking back on  my 17 and a half years I get really sad for I've spent so much time trying to be independent and grow up, and all those times that I could of spent with my mom are gone.

Sometimes, all a girl needs is her mom.

You were there when I took my first steps, 
And went unsteadily across the floor. 
You pushed and prodded: encouraged and guided, 
Until my steps took me out the door... 
You worry now "Is she ok?" 
Is there more you could have done? 
As I walk the paths of my unknown 
You wonder "Where has my child gone?" 
Where I am is where you have led me, 
With your special love you showed me a way, 
To believe in myself and the decisions I make. 
Taking on the challenge of life day-to-day. 
And where I go you can be sure, 
In spirit you shall never be alone. 
For where you are is what matters most to me,
Because to me that will always be home...
    -Author Unknown (I tweaked this a bit)

Sunday, May 10, 2009

so we just sit on a bench or stare at our shoes

Nothing to do or say. An emotionless day...I'm lying. 

I wish I could freeze time, just stop it for a couple hours, days, weeks or maybe even years.

i ain't no queen of hearts, I go through stages
I fall in love then complicate it
yeah, you know the feeling
without much hope just blind ambition
pretending that there's nothing missing
I always kept believing that...
more, I thought if I had more I wouldn't get so bored
but everything just left me empty
love walking in and out of my door
wasn't good enough no more
when I don't trust myself life really sucks and...

What's Good For Me - Lucy Woodward

epitome of my life at the moment

Saturday, May 9, 2009

i fall in love and complicate things

Sorry for my lack of update lately, I have so much school work to get through, it's hard to keep up with the blog. It's either blog or homework, and since I want to keep my marks up, I choose homework, although I wish I could be choosing blog. Sorry for the rambling. So these pictures are from yesterday, today's picture (yes only one) will be up tomorrow. I went shopping today with my best friend in order to relax from all the school work. Unfortunately, being on a budget I only bought an oversized tee from Forever 21 for $9. I'm only buying staples right now, things that I know I'll wear over and over again.

Anyways, yesterday was a really nice day, and since I do love my apple tree, I thought it would be nice to do a little photoshoot, although I so tired while taking the pictures they didn't turn out quite as well as I hoped they would. Hope you all still enjoy them.


The one thing I love more than Magnolias or Cherry Blossoms is apple tree's, especially when they're in bloom. My tree isn't in full bloom yet, but I'm predicting it will be over the next couple of days.
I managed to get a good picture of a bird who lived in our evergreen tree the last couple weeks. She had two little birdies that are utterly adorable. Unfortunately, they flew away, and I haven't seen them for the last couple of days.

I hope you're all enjoying spring. As of today there are only 24 days of classes left, + 4 days of exams, and I'm done high school. Counting weekends, and exams, till my actual graduation day there are 45 days. I'm actually kind of getting sad...kind of.

Reminder: tomorrow is mother's day. :)

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

cause right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me

mini dress, vintage. skirt, Head. kitten heels, The Bay. belt, vintage. jewelry, mix of gifts/vintage.

I've been going through piles of homework each day, which is becoming harder every day due to the consistently beautiful weather we're having and my lack of sleep. I really must be suffering from all the  symptoms of spring fever. I just cannot get enough of the sun peaking out from under the clouds, the flowers and trees blooming, the beautiful carpets of glass decking open spaces. I feel like throwing away all my school books and simply enjoying life, yet unfortunately, I must suffer through a month and three weeks until that glorious period of freedom. Then come September I will begin four grueling years of more school, but I'm looking forward to those years. :)

I miss my little quote of the day things, so here's one for today:
" Never frown when you are sad, you never know who is falling in love with your smile."

Ps. Today is 1 month till prom, so that means only 1 month till you'll all see my prom dress. :D

Some flowers from my garden. No idea what their called. If anyone knows, please tell me.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

on a balcony of summer air

beaded shrug thing, Marciano. dressy tank, Forever 21. skirt, Marciano. tights, Calvin Klein. shoes, Aldo.

Daddy's birthday party today. Happy Birthday Dad!!

Next week is mother's day, and therefore, I made a little video gift for my mom. I might upload it and show you all, although I really don't like the way I looked 4 years ago. Lol.

And because I think this band is awesome, check it out.

Have an awesome week everyone!

Saturday, May 2, 2009

you're just a love machine

white blazer, Bershka. tee, unknown. shorts, AE. shoes, Guess.
I'm loving my white blazer. I've had it for two years, but i've only just started wearing it. I went to the movies last night with my best friend, and 17 Again is an AWESOME movie!
The bag is by Christiana and this design was ripped off by Fendi and changed up a bit sometime in 2002 I think. Maybe 2003. 

I'm not exactly a very tag prone person, but I was tagged and I liked some of the questions so I thought I'd do it. Enjoy :)
what is your current obsession? crocheting. i'm in love with it, so much fun.
what are you wearing now? DIY print tee, black Pull and Bear leggings. white ankle socks.
do you nap a lot? never. i hardly sleep either. ooo, not good.
what is on your desk? sketchbooks, old Vogue issues, textbooks,computer, printer and lots of other junk like piles of markers, pencils, and pens.
what would you like to learn to do? i'm currently learning to crochet, but i want to learn how to embroider, plus i need to brush up on my sewing skills.
what’s for dinner? whatever mommy dearest will make. :)
what was the last thing you bought? movie ticket to see 17 Again
what is your favorite weather? sunny and warm, not hot. and rainy spring and summer days.
do you believe in love at first sight? nope. i think you have to get to know someone to love them. "love at first sight" is mere infatuation in my opinion.
what is your most challenging goal right now? to successfully pass finish these last weeks of high school.
if you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where do you want it to be? Paris, France
what would you like to have in your hands right now? acceptance letter to Ryerson School of Fashion
what would you like to get rid of? all my school work from this past semester
what languages can you speak? fluent english and lithuanian
what language(s) do you want to be able to speak? italian, french, spanish
what do you want to be when you grow up? fashion journalist or the next Anna Wintour
what's one thing you're looking forward to? graduating high school
what websites you visit constantly during the day? facebook, my blog and various other blogs, google, teen vogue,
if you were to pick up a pen right now, what would be the first thing you'd write? something to do with my law homework
if you you could be anywhere in the world at any point in time, where would you be? sitting at an outdoor cafe along the cobble streets in Vilnius, Lithuania 
 what was the last movie you watched? Aquamarine. love this movie

+ what is one of your biggest pet peeves?

I tag: La Femme Chic, bizarre!, Chic Heroin, She's Dressing Up, Frock Around the Clock + anyone else who wants to do this

My neighbor's Magnolia tree. So gorgeous. I wish it was in my yard.